Know-All

Once again I'm amazed about God. I'm amazed that he just knows what He is doing. He's a know-all in the best sense of the word (:

Just the other day a friend was teaching about what it means to follow Jesus. "When you follow you don't take the lead," she said. Sounds logical, doesn't it?
I'm just really excited at the moment about what it means to follow STEP by STEP by STEP... Doing that means to say yes to God's way for you, notwithstanding the fact that you might not see where it is going, that you might perhaps not want to go where it is going or - especially difficult for someone like me who loves planning and achieving goals as quickly as possible - it means just to go God's way even if you might have discovered a seeming short cut.
And if you follow God that closely it all comes together to a perfect plan!

Over the last eight years I've found myself in places and especially jobs I didn't want to be in. I think the prayer I've said most often in this last decade was, "God, I don't want to do that! Can't I leave?!?" But He said no, and I just kept following.
Currently, I'm working as a student teacher. The last (two years) step before I'm a "real" teacher. The job I've always thought God wanted me to do. And I've realised lately that I really don't like it! I don't like most things that are attached to that job. How can that be if you follow? What went wrong??

Nothing!
It's just another step I have to take. God reminded me that he had told me right away, at the beginning of my studies that I will - if ever - not work as a teacher for a long time (thank you!!). I had forgotten about that. He corrected my view on my way giving new revelations about my calling. And He showed me what so many other steps I had already taken have been good for. What He had actually taught me through them, spiritually, characterwise and practically. I would never have reached the place I am now at - spiritually, characterwise and practically - if I hadn't trusted Him completely; that He just knows it all, and that all the things will work together for the good. They actually have. I'm so blessed where I am! God has given me so much! More than I had asked for.

I'm so grateful that he actually answers our prayers. I'm so grateful that He does not only know our yearnings but that He actually gave them to us and is interested in fulfilling them. In HIS timing. Which is the right one. My time is in His hands.

Thank you God that you don't stop leading me. That my complaining does not deter you from loving me. That you always reach out your hands to hold me and guide me! Keep my heart teachable, I pray.

Search me, o God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me the way everlasting.
Psalm 139,23f.