What do YOU want??

I feel like God is asking me that question.

There are so many things to do, opportunities to seize, situations to endure. What's the Father's will for me? How can I know? How can I be sure that the decisions I make, the ways I walk on are His?

What do YOU want, Kerstin?

You COULD go out into the streets evangelising. You COULD lead worship tomorrow. You COULD stay where you are. You COULD leave. But what do YOU want??I give you many options to choose between. There are many ways you could go. But what do YOU want?
Do you know what you want?

I think God is not as rigid as we (I) sometimes think. I guess I've adopted kind of a fatalistic attitude of "whatever...", confusing passivity and not standing up for what I want with doing His will.

I'm learning that it is really NOT good to let life just happen to you. God gave us DOMINION over the earth. Guess, that's quite active.

Well, I'm just thinking out loud. And wondering: What exactly DO I want??